I gaze up and see

this phenomenon

an entity

overcasting humanity

it has its own moods

its own thoughts

stretches vastly across

and chooses any person it wants

bringing them happiness

true or false

or a lifestyle that haunts

of regrets and despair

to think that one had cared

but it was only just a game

to manipulate

what once was thought to be real

only became dead memories

thoughts that no longer exist

and its hard to resist

to let go

of that special someone

who brought a warm feeling inside

slowly they died

 

I no longer want to feel this way

I want to live my life, continue to stay

sane with a peace of mind

it was the entity that made me blind

as it lingers in my head

it laughs, mocks, wants me to dred

of what it had fed

so hard to forget

what was done, what was promised, what was said

it lives outside of time

peering through, looking at me

wanting me to suffer, bring me misery

 

whats done is done

its time to look ahead

hoping for some serenity

avoiding to be misled

slowly finding a way out the dark

I come face to face with the entity

and I whisper "You can no longer control me"

 

I once felt something

now I want to feel nothing

 

*Inspired by a friend*